Who Needs a Chocolate Chip Cookie?

Ok, I'll put it out there. I'm feeling like a slug lately. Well, that's probably not true. A slug, albeit plump-looking and remarkably slow, probably doesn't feel fat, slow, and out of shape, it likely just feels...normal.
I can't seem to stop making poor food choices...just a minute, I need to go get another chocolate chip cookie...ok, I'm back. As I was saying, I make a commitment to myself daily to make better food choices and stay away from junk. Did I mention I took my two-year-old to McDonald's last night? Yeah, I had a grease-ball burger and a large fry to go thank you very much. Pass the salt would you?
My running fitness seems to be dwindling. I can't imagine why. After Timberman I've been spending more time doing 20-minute ice repeats for my Achilles than 400-800 meter repeats on the track.
This has been my best season of time trial training on my bike, yet today was lackluster. It could have been the wind, but I'm thinking it's just that I suck. It seemed like a lazy, fat-boy kind of effort. Sheesh!
Swimming is in fact a bright point. I had one of my fastest swim splits for 1.2 miles yesterday, but I think I swam a little farter out, which may have cut some yardage, which means it was likely just average-ish.
So, there it is fat, slow, and slug-like.
I know what you're thinking so I'll just say it for you:
"C'mon, you are SO not fat, you're fine."
"You could kick MY butt running, you're fine."
"It was a windy day cycling today, give yourself a break, you're fine."
"You were probably close enough to your swim course that it wouldn't even matter, you're fine."
...How's that? Close?
I'm in a slump...kind of. I'm a little banged up and I'm being cautious, so I'm running less and not fast. That's just being smart and treating my body wisely. However, the fact that I was able to do more track workouts this year than in a long time, I believe it really made a big difference in my running, cycling, and overall performance in triathlon. I felt strong, fast, and light. It was a good feeling. I like that feeling. I WANT that feeling. THAT feeling is NOT being in a slump.
I have 70.3 miles of swimming, cycling, and running to cover next weekend in E. Tawas, Michigan. I should be good on the swim. I should be fine on the bike. I want to be fine...and good on the run, but I'm nervous about my pieces and parts falling off and then being DQ'd for littering.
"The Achilles tendon you left out on the course caused a runner to slip and hurt himself," the official will say, "And the bone fragment from your foot that you left roadside caused a flat tire for one of our later finishing cyclists".
DOH!!!
I know, doom and gloom is what doom and gloom does. So, I've been working on this. I've been trying to imagine myself gliding through the waters of Lake Huron to a wonderful swim finish. I've been trying to imagine myself hammering along on the bike to a killer bike split. I've been trying to imagine myself running with a pain free, smooth, comfortable stride leading me into the finish line healthy, strong, and fulfilled. I've been trying to imagine myself only needing a week to recover before looking forward to the Great Turtle 1/2 Marathon on Mackinac Island, in October. It's time to get back to that. It's time to be positive. It's time to rise above my setback. It's time to let the sun shine in!
...It's time for another chocolate chip cookie!!!