FOCUS

So while I was riding today with tired legs and the memory of the lower-leg pain I experienced yesterday that had me walking at mile 9.5 of my 12.5 mile run, and my recent thought of attempting to get into the Cedar Point, Rev3, full-iron distance triathlon, I realized I am insane.
I would need help from GU to justify my iron distance challenge because I am already registered for a different event (TAWAS 1/2 iron distance) on the same day and if GU did not have a comp entry available, I couldn't justify eating the registration fee for the other event, paying a fee for canceling my camping reservation, and then paying $500+ for a different event...yadda, yadda, yadda.
As it turned out, GU had no comp entries to offer. I put it out there, but it came back as negatory...nope...too late. While I waited for the response from GU, I told Maggie that I was actually more fearful that I could get in than I was about being turned down. If I got in, my whole thinking would shift for the remainder of the summer for how I approached the rest of my season and my focus would be the iron distance.
I learned that I need to smell the provebial roses. I've thought about doing the Timberman 1/2 Ironman for years. I'm registered to do this event, I have a hotel set up, I'm looking forward to it like heck, but apparently not giving it its proper due. Shame on ME!
How could I do that? It's just disrespectful. It's disrespectful to the event and it's disrespectful of me. SHEESH!! FOCUS MAN!!!
I'm a triathlon junkie. I recognize this. I can't help myself but to think of my next workout...my next race...my next season...my next bigger, better triathlon...thing. However, I still need to respect the NOW.
This weekend I will be doing the National 24-Hour Challenge cycling event where I will be attempting to ride over 200 miles. I'm excited about this. I need to focus on this. Yes, it is a piece of the triathlon puzzle, but I need to appreciate it for itself, in and of itself, and I will.
I didn't get into the Rev3 full-iron distance event because I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO! I'm supposed to honor my commitment mentally, phyically, and emotionally to the TIMBERMAN, IRONMAN 70.3. This is my race. This is my event. This should not be overshadowed by anything else this season...nor will it be.
FOCUS...
The Timberman Ironman 70.3 (aka 1/2 Ironman) is a classic event. I've drooled over the possibility of traveling east to New Hampshire and putting my best foot forward on this course. This is my year to do it. This is what I embraced as my focus for my 2010, in addition to doing shorter/faster races leading up to it.
If this rambling isn't enough to prove my insanity, well...that's ok, I know where I stand and my focus is clear.
Peace.